Sunday, May 31, 2009

Tik tok tok tok.. Im waiting for the time to fly only.. Hmm, this opening sounds very familiar.. Ah, doesnt matter

Well, June hol is starting, and things getting,well, as hard as i gonna say this, boring.. I mean, there are nothing else to look forward to.. No more "fucked up class" or "fun class".. No more "I gonna get A 2mr!" nor "ah fuck it, i gonna slack a lot 2mr".. Well, life is always a double head coin, so wad can i say?

Organize an outing for RPCG ytd, and though personally i found it quite disappointing since there are only 7 ppl that shows up out of....idk hw many ppl in rpcg =x But according to Derek, i done a very good job alrd, since the 1st outing he plan, only 3 ppl turn up.. He entrust me to organize an outing for bball again, but i dont think it will be that easy, since this one will req bball skill ppl only.. In any case, Jonathan challenge me to badminton game on tue.. This is gonna be interesting >:)

Young just called me and ask me to go clememnti 2mr. Mm, i can see a lan session coming up 2mr.. I'll be meeting Young at 10, while Wj and few of his friend will come over at 12pm.. Left 4 dead, seems like it have been a long time since i play that game.. Haha!

I always feel this....absence within me.. It's like as if im incomplete and i need something to complete it.. Whenever i think about this, it will just make me more and more frustrated.. It's like.....there is juz this void.. that cant be explained by words.. Now, to counter this, in my mind always have the thought "if she can make it, so can I also!" and no, the she is not mt.. Why will it be mt anw? -.-

It have been a few days now.. Maybe you thought i've forgotten about it, but the truth is, im still waiting.. I'll still wait even though it will take 1 week, or 1 month, or 1 year (fine, im juz joking about the 1 year, but yes, i am still waiting)

Friday, May 29, 2009

I want to blog, but i dont want to blog. So, it's going to be a short post filled with all my frustration and vex.

Today i skipped SM class again, thinking of going out with my friend. Ends up? I caught myself in a freaking outward situation coz her sis tag along and her mum tag along at the earlier time. I was like "wtf? wtf?" Not to mention, her attitude of being "host" is totally sux.. I mean, it's weird enuff for me alrd that her sis and mum tag along, and yet, she still talk to her family more, so im like the total extra. cant blame her totally, but still, common sense and social skill please?

Arrived home, thinking want to play Dota.. So, guess wad world try to piss me off with? Yeah, i cant connect to bnet AGAIN! That really pissed me off greatly that i even need to resort to garena with some player i manage to drag from my clan in bnet.. this is freaking frustrating alrd -.-

To add insult to injury, i thought i want to make a gathering for RPCG 2mr since there is no Arrow. And guess wad? I thought at least more will turn up, but in the end, only 6. Initially, the number is not even this great. And it really frustrate me, coz after all the planning i put in, it still fail.. I juz CANT tolerate planned failure.

The only "happy" thing that happen to me is, cherry's waiting for my call. Not to mention how sweet she is when she try to cheer me up when i told her my frustration.. She's juz.....amazing..

That should be all for nw. Im still abit pek chek (or however u want to spell it, I DONT CARE) now. Pui *spit on the ground*.. Idk why i like to do that, but when im frustrated, i always like to just freaking spit on ground. Urgh..

Like what i said on previous previous post, perhaps u wont be seeing my post, or maybe u will someday.. But i really want to thank you for always being there when i'm really down.. Thx a lot for everything yeah?

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

My 2nd day skipping marketing.. Hmm, really should break this habit.. Reason: I woke up late and thus miss whole 1st meeting. Realizing that, i head down to lib instead of class today.. I only reach lib ard 11am.. Since it should be ard C group's break time, i ask zakia and wj to go down lunch. In the end, today's a tough day for them, and they cant make it for lunch. And honest, a day without lunch with them move reallllly slow.. That's why, when the time strike 4pm, i was overjoyed! Moreover, we are going to watch movie after that.. So, off we go to causeway to watch. Haha!!

We watched night at the museum 2.. It's really funny, i swear.. Haha! If only i know, i'll watch the 1st one also.. Haha!!!

Im guessing it's a few more days till the bishan int is opening up the circle line extension.. Final touch is been added here and there and it really look fresh.. It's really nice..

Last but not least, June holiday's coming, and guess wad? I had it all planned to make it fun alrd! :D I'll be all alone in singapore, and thus, i'll be more freeeee! Wohoooo!!

Ok, i shall get busy with disturbing people and all now.. Till next post, cheerio~!

Memories lives on, it's undeniable that it have become part of me.. I dont know how, if u manage to do it, to erase them completely and treat it as a whole new thing totally.. Yes, at times i still think of you.. So, what's the diff then, you ask? Well, diff is, i'm sure that it will not affect my life at all anymore..

Monday, May 25, 2009

Haha, i thought i can dont need sleep for the day. And i actually stay awake all the way till 5 am.. haha! Fall asleep only at 6 am and woke up at 9 am.. And that's when i have a class at 10 am.. Am i pro or am i pro? Haha!

Late and missed the whole 1st meeting. But manage to catch up with the rest on the 1st break. It's not a very hard module today.. And guess wad, i had my 1st UT today.. It's SM UT.. Surprisingly, found it quite easy and i answered most of it correctly. i WANT an A for this UT, idc..

Speak of A, Shermaine did well for her exam! Way to go!! She really working hard for what she's aiming.. Ok, my turn to work hard too le :D

Oh oh, Bishan Int is finishing alrd! The platform toward JE is aired with aircon and closed alrd now.. WOOOOO!!! NO MORE HOT AIR WHEN WAITING FOR TRAIN TO WOODLANDS!!!

Maybe it's just me.. Or maybe you can feel it too.. But i want you to know, that sometimes, i DO miss you :D

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Ytd went for Play! and it left me tired and exhausted after that.. It was really fun! :D Initially, i thought it's going to be boring and im a bit lazy to go. But upon reaching......you wont have the idea on how high i was. :D

Praise and worship starts at 7 and guess wad? I experienced unquenchable thirst, literally.. Bottles and bottles of water i down without feeling bloated.. haha!! It's quite fun though

Today's yet another fun day.. When i woke up though, i experience muscle pains everywhere in my body, but thanks Lord, it's much better now.. Haha!

Life's been a roller coaster these few days, and im trusting in God and believe this is just a "sonic boom" period of mine.. Let troubles and crisis and everything bad attack me now.. I would want to see how far i can go to endure anw.. I'm trusting in Him that He will settle everything for me.. Mm, this is just how my God works.. :D

Well, 2mr is BPM and my 1st UT in my 3rd year.. Hope everything went well.. I'll try to remember to post again 2mr then.. Gotta go bathe and have my dinner now.. Cya :D

What used to seem like your sweet, sincere and i'll-do-anything-to-see-that-smile-again smile only seems like a sarcastic and mocking smile to me now. Maybe it's just me being bias, but that's really how it seems to me..

Friday, May 22, 2009

It's friday, and I'm suppose to end my weekend feeling happy and victoriously, but not today.. It's SM class, and though i usually do really well on it, today's not the case..

I thought i can do it, honest. I thought i wont screw it up, i thought it's going to be easy. I had everything planned in my mind every single word i want to say, i had it in my mind. Me and my team head down to LT (lecture theater) to do our final presentation in front of "GMs". I was soo confident that everything's going to be ok, that when the faci ask who want to go 1st, i shot my hand up as soon as I can. Everything went that well till when i need to face the audience on the stage... Guess wad happen? Yeah... I blanked out.. FUCK IT, I SWEAR!! Im fucking disappointed on myself right now that i cant even feel happy at all now.. What used to be excitement feeling for Play! 2mr, felt like some crappy shit that make me feel lazy to go out 2mr.. I really hate myself today, really..

Bishan interchange station is finishing soon.. I would really like to test ride the circle line one day.. It's just yet a promise i made to myself.. It look so beautiful, and yet, it doesnt make me feel nice at all when i look at it..

Good thing is, talked to Cherry more and more nowadays, and we decided that we are going out on this june holiday. I know i know, fyp is straining us and all, but it's just 1 day, just let me have some fun time lah -.-

I really want to put something that i'm thinking right now here, but honestly, i dont know what to put.. Im just so tired of thinking and all alrd now.. Im going to take a nap, and wake up much later.. Cya guys till next post

Thursday, May 21, 2009

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Im pretty nervous nw.. 2mr gotta wear formal, and i only have 1 rather formal shirt.. I really hope it's acceptable 2mr.. Why formal clothes? Coz sales management module presentation will be presented in front of GMs from other company (or so i heard). Half of me hope it's wrong, coz it'll be very.....nerf wrecking.. Though other part of me want it to be true, i mean it's sooner or later thing mah.. 1 day, i WILL need to face these kind of people also..

Been skipping RJs these few days... Bad habbit.. Shall start doing RJ more often again now.. Oh Lord, kick this laziness habit away from me yeah? thx a lot :D

Talked to Shermaine online just now.. Gosh, i swear, she can be really sweet.. Haha.. Everyone have their past, you can either look at it as a scar that was caused due to careleness or u can see it as a scar that make u look tougher.. Dont worry about the past loh :D

Emotion running wild now.. Keep recalling the past and all.. Fucked up, i know.. Perhaps it's just a metamorphosis period of mine.. Lets hope so yeah yeah? :D

Passed Theater on the bay ytd, after service for dinner.. Suddenly the voice pops out in my head "Singapore scenery is just great isn't it? Got merlion, got cargo ships, got half built building" which immediately been followed by ur laughter.. I'm not gonna lie, and i really DO miss that time..

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

They say "He can make it one! If only he's not so lazy! He's like this now becoz he's lazy! His laziness will kill him someday" All he can say is "Fuck you! I do what i think is best to be done! I might slack sometime, but that doesnt mean I can be the most successful person in the whole earth even if i try! I tried my best, i know myself well enough and I DO NOT want to waste my effort to achieve something that's not even feasible.."

I'm really tired over these 2 days.. You can say that i dont really enjoy mon and tue class. I mean, they sure looks fun, but i really cant joke and all with them like how i joke with my thur and fri class.. When i finished my today's class, i'm quite surprised that i actually say out loud "And this is how my tue end!" with a big smile on the face and an excited tone.. Gonna be Wed 2mr, and fun classes will begin alrd.. Damn looking forward to it..

I want to post down my complain on life now, but i dont feel like posting much now alrd. So maybe, i'll just go share with someone else then.. Cya!

Maybe it's just me, but i really think that i begin to grow a bit crazy over you.. Maybe it sounds impossible, but like how u have tried your best, i will try my best to make it work also..

Monday, May 18, 2009

Been a while since i come to blog alrd eh? Thing getting better for me now.. No more those screwed up feeling within....though challenges of life are still there.. Me and my team mates are rushing our FYP, and that doesnt make my mood good at all.. I hate people rushing me for things. I hate it when nothing is planned. I hate it when......gah, i juz hate FYP fullstop.

Lots of stuff i would like to type down actually.. But i dont know how to or where to start.. Haha.. But well, life in general is good, that's all i can say

I'm actually looking for someplace to listen to music, anyone have any recommendation? I mean, no, not like youtube or something.. Im talking about a database of songs, the place that will allow me to drown myself into thousands and thousands of random songs.. Anyone knew of such website?

I want my existance to be known. I want them to recognize me. No, im not attention seeker. I just dont want to be "yet another guy in my class". I'm working hard on it, and i will achieve it 1 day.

I dont think you'll ever read my blog (or maybe, just yet), but i really want you to know that i feel really happy when u show me ur appreciation for however small things that i've done for you.. Thanks.. ;)

Thursday, May 14, 2009

*yawn* good mooooorning world!! Oops, it's night time alrd.. Fall asleep on what's suppose to be a short nap sia.. I didnt even plan to take a nap.. Ah well, too tired i guess

Life's havent improved much yet since of my last post.. Still feel miserable for wadever reason it is..
In fact, the nap i mention above, it's becoz i feel so miserable that i cant do anything, and decided to just lie down..

It's like, take a paper, crumple it, toss it around in the mid air, that is how i felt within me actually.. I'm so.......lost and ARGH!!! -.-

On the bright side though, cherry entrusted me to encourage her before her exam, and initially, i cant think of any words to say, but after a while, i encourage her well, and she really like it!! It have been a while since someone appreciate me that much.. Thx cherry, u does make my life a better life..

Im gonna stop posting here i guess.. Cant think of what to post anymore for the day. Till next time

Staring at they sky, i recalled a scene from a book that said "though we are far now, we still share the same sky.. That thought alone make me feel closer to you"

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

It's wednesday, and i had a day off today.. Waste away my morning by sleeping in for the day.. Ah, it have been a while since i do that.. Woke up to configure my final fantasy 8 game to make it not laggy. I only success fixing it about noon time, and by then, i need to go for lunch alrd.

Played FF8 at the afternoon till Tiong call me to go skype and play dota with the rest. Was quite a fun game, though we lost. Sigh..

Taking a break now, and using the time to read ichigo 100%. It's my 2nd time reading it, and usually, if i re read something, i'll grow bored of it, but when i re read ichigo 100%, i really do enjoy it again.. It kinda reminds me of my past, no not that im like manaka or something, but the past when im still reading this series. It really does bring back memories..

Ok, dinner time alrd now. i know the post is short, but then again, nothing interesting happen today. Oh oh! I cant wait for 2mr, for 2mr is micro-econ class!! SEE YOU GUYS SOON MY FUN CLASS!! :D

As i was reading ichigo 100%, deep inside me, i want to feel the feeling of being loved again....badly

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

I'm not sure why, but i have a bad feeling about something now. It feel so twisted inside, and though i keep on trying to figure it out, it comes out to no avail. It felt like as if i forgot to do something important, something that will affect things greatly. Honest, it may sounds too exaggerating, but this is really how i feel now.. and i hate it.

How tempted i am to skip school again today, when i woke up just to see the time shows 830 alrd.. Indeed i made kristy to give me a morning call, but somehow, i fall asleep again after that. How frustrating.. But well, i manage to convince myself that school's gonna be fun today, and indeed it does turn out quite fun.

Zakia didnt go to school today coz she's still sick.. :( Get well soon!! Kinda miss her now, on how she like to joke around and everything. I bet when she saw this post she'll go "aww, i miss u too dude" LOL!!! :P

Lemme share life in generally for me now.. If u going to ask me "how are u?" i think i'll stick with "im not really fine, but i still can cope" Coz that is really how i feel. Previously i shared on i felt alrd, didnt i? The twisted and crumpled feeling.. Problem is, i dont only feel it now, but i felt it like almost most of the time nowaday. And whenever i felt that, i always try to find out, what causes it? I mean, honestly, i really dont know the freaking reason. Suddenly, it just felt so.....wrong. Suddenly the happy-go-lucky image that i tried to build shattered within these few days, and i dont even know why. And the qn of "what's bothering me" really bothers me a lot now.. It's almost same as saying im so frustrated that im frustrated right now. I'm confused that im confused now. And to make thing worse, it feel like, whatever that im missing now, is freaking important to me, only i cant put my finger into it just yet. Gah!

k, i shall stop here and think more on what's bothering me again 1st now. I really want to get out of this feeling ASAP -.-

Monday, May 11, 2009

I give up.. Spent some time trying to figure out how to make "fake" BGM using imeem with zakia but apparently, sick zakia cant take too much pressure and went to sleep alrd.. Recover fast, wise one! :D

Skipped school today and went out to had fun with Kristy instead =x We didnt meet till around 12pm though. So, i met up with Sinting 1st,coz he said he will need to borrow charger from me since his is spoilt, then we head down to RP together. He proceed on to his class, whereas i made a detour to One Stop Center to pay up my school fee. Then head down to lib to slack around 1st. Took Death Note comic 10-11 and attempt to finish it.. It was getting interesting.. Kinda regret didnt finish it up last time.. Sitting in lib does bring back memories, but i shant be posting it here

Anw, after Kristy and I met up, we head down to the GV cinema in Jurong Point. Watched 1pm show, and after that went to swensens for high tea.. It have been a while since i eat at swensens, and wew, the food does feel nice! :D Had chicken bake rice and Chocolate crunch whereas she had swensens combo and double berries (yeah, i think this should be the name). It was pretty awesome! :D

Head home after that, and as i was feeling very tired, guess wad happen to me? I freaking FALL ASLEEP on train! All i know is i was at marsiling, and when i woke up, i heard "next stop, orchard" Funny thing is, for a split second, my mind still can think "why is it orchard alrd? Shouldnt they pass bishan before orchard?" And that is when i realize i miss my stop -.-

Quite a fun day, in conclusion, esp when Sinting told me that BPM today is tough, so going school might just fried my precious brain cells! :D Good thing, good thing.. Well, the night getting old now, but not old enuff for me to turn in yet, so im going to stop posting here and resume back wad im doing: fixing this blog to be a nicer place for both reader and poster! :D

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Wow, the move is finally done! It took me almost the whole day to change the blogskin and all..
I know i know, there is still this edit me list thingy, but i really dont know wad to put there just yet, so, im going to leave them alone 1st,till i know wad to do abt it next time.. Background song also nt slotted in yet, but i think by 2mr should be up alrd..

So, why the move? There are 2 reason actually.. 1st is becoz Shemin said she want to move blog coz she want to leave her past behind, which i think is a good idea.. When i told her this, she suggested me to change also, so here am i, in my new home blog :D Secondly, well, im going to use Chronicle of Life as my emotion dumping place[if any].. whereas, morning rain will be all the things that's well...ranbowy? :D

There are several stuffs i would like to blog down now, so, im going straight to the point now..

It's mother's day, so me and my family went out for lunch.. We went with my aunt and ate at Crystal Jade.. Gosh! Their food is awesome!! But the surprising part is when we get the bill.. It piles up to S$490++ !! I was like "wtf?? so ex arh?" But then again, my aunt is a rich, wad do i care? =x

Came back home after that, and went online.. Met this girl online and she's quite interesting! Her name is Crystal :D Nice meeting you. We have lots of similarity actually, and thus we can click easily.. Quite fun talking to her

Then as we talk now, shawn and the rest are yapping away on the other end of skype. Yup, i need to go play game with them alrd soon.. Then i think i shall stop the post here 1st then.. Till the next post! :D