Thursday, September 24, 2009

Haha, how long alrd since i last blog? =x Can you believe it, I cant even remember what is my bloglink anymore =x and not to mention, my blog pw is like uber long -.- Yeah, i just realized it.. Any prob with that? XD Kay, lets do some update I just reach sg this morning, after 2 weeks off vacation in Seattle, Wa visiting my bro. Honestly, there is a HUGE difference between sg ppl and american. The way they talk, the way they greet you, the way they start convo, the way they throw you a smile, the way they simply say "oh no no, you are fine, I'm just taking a cup", cutting long to short, if you feel shitty, TALK TO A DAMN AMERICAN, and they'll make your day XD This makes me more motivated to find some ang moh girl to be my gf XD Kay, joke aside (not the polite-america part, duh), I really thinking of continuing my studies in America after my degree in sg. It really does feel good to be there, honest. Speaking about studies, it really dawn to me that in the age of 19, i really have not much time to fool around anymore. True, i admit that I'm addicted to gaming, and as if that's not bad enough, I also admit that I'm addicted to relationship, and that's really not helping me much. 3 years down the road, I need to work off, and gather enuff money for my master if I were to continue in America. At the same time, if i were to go to America for master, that means, throughout the 3 years, i NEED to take the degree too.. And to top it off, I really really only want to get married 1 year after i done my master. Taking into account of anything, I only can get married around 26-27 years old. That means, when my kid is my age, i'll be 50 alrd, and that's too old.. And suddenly, it just felt like my life is crumpled up and cramped up now.. And this is why, I want to remind my future self, if I were to re read my blog one day: I promise, from this day onward, I'll change.. I'll change bit by bit becoming better. It doesnt matter if it's just a small step at a time, but I really really want to change for the better.. I want to stop gaming, I want to spend my time becoming outdoor guy instead of indoor guy, I want to dedicate myself to God, and most importantly, I DO NOT want to get addicted into relationship anymore. (look around for girls, yeah, but not relationship) As i was typing this, it felt so impossible for the now me, but readers, if there's any, please, I need your help if you are reading this, remind me every now and then about my promise to myself yeah? I will not be able to do anything without the help of you guys too.. So please.. I owe you guys one yeah...

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Aww, you are sick today.. The absence of you today make me realize, perhaps, all along i took you for granted alrd.. Perhaps, all along, i thought, I can do whatever i want, and yet you'll still come and find me at the end of the day.. But just a day of not talking to you make me realize, i DO miss you..

There's so much thing I want to share about, and yet, you sounded so weak.. I wanted to talk to you more, and yet, you doesnt sound okay at all.. I just hope that you are much better by 2mr..

I promise, I will try not to take you for granted anymore.. Get well soon, kay?