Tuesday, May 12, 2009

I'm not sure why, but i have a bad feeling about something now. It feel so twisted inside, and though i keep on trying to figure it out, it comes out to no avail. It felt like as if i forgot to do something important, something that will affect things greatly. Honest, it may sounds too exaggerating, but this is really how i feel now.. and i hate it.

How tempted i am to skip school again today, when i woke up just to see the time shows 830 alrd.. Indeed i made kristy to give me a morning call, but somehow, i fall asleep again after that. How frustrating.. But well, i manage to convince myself that school's gonna be fun today, and indeed it does turn out quite fun.

Zakia didnt go to school today coz she's still sick.. :( Get well soon!! Kinda miss her now, on how she like to joke around and everything. I bet when she saw this post she'll go "aww, i miss u too dude" LOL!!! :P

Lemme share life in generally for me now.. If u going to ask me "how are u?" i think i'll stick with "im not really fine, but i still can cope" Coz that is really how i feel. Previously i shared on i felt alrd, didnt i? The twisted and crumpled feeling.. Problem is, i dont only feel it now, but i felt it like almost most of the time nowaday. And whenever i felt that, i always try to find out, what causes it? I mean, honestly, i really dont know the freaking reason. Suddenly, it just felt so.....wrong. Suddenly the happy-go-lucky image that i tried to build shattered within these few days, and i dont even know why. And the qn of "what's bothering me" really bothers me a lot now.. It's almost same as saying im so frustrated that im frustrated right now. I'm confused that im confused now. And to make thing worse, it feel like, whatever that im missing now, is freaking important to me, only i cant put my finger into it just yet. Gah!

k, i shall stop here and think more on what's bothering me again 1st now. I really want to get out of this feeling ASAP -.-